i dreamt that.

dad has one month more.

and we all know that he will die after one month.

would that be better? if he happened to know that he has one month to live?

i really don't know.

i woke up.

and i pondered.

if we had known that he had one month left, we could throw away everything and accompany him 24/7. we could have used all our money to bring him on overseas trips. we could have eaten anything that he wants. we could have seen almost everything he wants to see.

at least, we could fulfill his final wishes... right?

but then again, would dad be happy if he had known that he had only a month's time?

perhaps not.

but i secretly wished that he had... then i could have told him everything i wanted to... and do everything i wanted to...

just for that last time. although i treated everything as the last.

i really did. trust me.