my mum was drunk on Christmas day. when my primary school clique came over for a quiet celebration.

what's new right?

but this time round, it just doesn't hurt that much anymore. perhaps i've already come to accept the undeniable fact that you're gonna remain as such forever.

never felt so restless and unmotivated and sian in my life.

(>.<)

早く早く終わった！

有些时候，人说的话可以很刺耳，

但如果那个人在我心中没有一定的位置，他的话一定不会正中红心。

相反的事实，你明白吗？

也许我的关心不够真诚

也许我的担心太多余

也许我根本不知道应该怎样对你

也许我不知道你现在的心情

偶像至朋友，朋友至好友，好友至密友，其实能拥有这样的一段感情真的是我的幸运。。。

irrational pangs of insecurity

for tomorrow.

:(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVuteyyJDtc&feature=player_embedded#!

i'm pretty affected. and intrigued. by this.

well the idea portrayed by the video is nothing new. it's something that has all along being in existence. in real life we've seen the famous photo of the vulture waiting to feed on the dying child. kevin carter, the one who took the photo, committed suicide in the end. some said that it's out of guilt. others said it's out of stress.

it all boils down to the question of ethics.

is it valid to view the photo in question as an art? is it that as long as it's an art piece, the process of creation does not matter? should there be such a practice? what can the helpless photographer do under such dangerous circumstances? is there a definite right or wrong? what exactly is ethical? even if it's ethically alright, how many journalists are able to put on the veil of ignorance and perhaps even mask their human nature to do it?

and i still have my media law questions swirling around in my mind.

(T.T)

feeling strange but i can't really express this strange feeling.

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heartbreak warfare

i had a hard time deciding where to put this entry coz it's neither negative/positive. but in the end i decided to put this here since it's an emo song. putting it under the positive section just seems too satirical.

anyways, i just love the song. it's real good.

Lightning strikes

Inside, my chest to keep me up at night

Dream of ways

To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air

Bombs are falling everywhere

It's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin,

No one really ever wins

In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love, why don't you say so?

If you want more love, why don't you say so?

Drop his name

Push it in and twist the knife again

Watch my face

As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air

Bombs are falling everywhere

It's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin,

No one really ever wins

In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love, why don't you say so?

If you want more love, why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me is to see how far I fall

God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight

Let's just fix this whole thing now

I swear to God we're gonna get it right

If you lay your weapon down

Red wine and ambien

You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare

Good to know it's all a game

Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

It's heartbreak warfare. It's heartbreak warfare. It's heartbreak warfare.