somehow i think it's more of like the shared memories u had w him when y'all cleaned up the pipes 5 years back, that's why u were so agitated when the workers (who didn't do a good job and really deserved to be scolded) came.

at least when u're like this, not under any kind of alcoholic influence, i can feel for u.

somehow seeing you like this, trying desperately to resolve the pipes problem, it hurts me too. memories of u 2 together just started flowing back...

i miss...

我：对啊，我朋友他们都很喜欢跳舞。

妈：喜欢是一回事，也要可以跳才行啊。谁知道那时候。。。

静止

my heart sank immediately and i felt like crying.

do you have to be SO encouraging, honestly?

you are totally hinting that i might not be able to dance ANYMORE even after this op. do you think you really SHOULD say that even if you really FEEL so? do you have to drive me near tears? haven't you been an expert at doing so already?

you've already displayed your fucking inconsiderate and insensitive side to your daughter who had just gone for an operation by blaming her for going for operation, and by saying that you don't understand why your daughter has to go for the operation coz she could totally walk around normally just that she couldn't squat and couldn't dance.

oh yar. how would you understand? you never had a passion. oh, sorry. you do hold a passion for alcohol. you said you can NEVER live without it.

draw an analogy, my dear mother. it's the same to me.

and pls. accept the truth. i've already gone for the operation. now what i can do is just heal up proper and quick.

how encouraging... how encouraging indeed. that you do not have faith in this.

ok. then don't. i never seek my main support from you anyways. i don't expect that from someone who consistently gets drunk and miserable.

i swear.

times like this, basically every single afternoon, i wish that i could put a bullet in your head

and free your soul from that pathetically drunk body.

窗外的天气 就像是 你多变的表情

下雨了 雨陪我哭泣
看不清 我也不想看清

离开你我安静的抽离 不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里 学会放弃

听雨的声音 一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望 雨能下不停
让想念继续 让爱变透明
我爱上给我 勇气的Rainie Love

久违的雨滴 一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望 雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密 能一直延续
我相信我将 会看到彩虹的美丽

冷冷的空气 很窒息 我无法呼吸
一万颗雨滴的距离 很彻底 让爱消失无息

离开你我安静的抽离 不忍揭晓的剧情

我的泪流在心里 学会放弃

听雨的声音 一滴滴清晰

你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望 雨能下不停
让想念继续 让爱变透明
我爱上给我 勇气的Rainie Love

窗外的雨滴 一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望 雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密 能一直延续
我相信我将 会看到彩虹的美丽

屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望 雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密 能一直延续
我相信我将 会看到彩虹的美丽

怎么会有想要抽泣的冲动？

感觉有些心疼。

窗外的天气，就像是呼应我现在复杂的心情。

该放手吗？

思念是一種病

當你在穿山越嶺的另一邊　我在孤獨的路上沒有盡頭

一輩子有多少的來不及　發現已經失去最重要的東西
恍然大悟早已遠去　為何總是在犯錯之後　才肯相信錯的是自己
他們說這就是人生　試著體會
試著忍住眼淚　還是躲不開應該有的情緒
我不會奢求世界停止轉動　我知道逃避一點都沒有用
只是這段時間裡　尤其在夜裡　還是會想起難忘的事情
我想我的思念是一種病　久久不能痊癒

＊當你在穿山越嶺的另一邊　我在孤獨的路上沒有盡頭
　時常感覺你在耳後的呼吸　卻未曾感覺你在心口的鼻息
　(Oh 思念是一種病 Oh 思念是一種病　一種病)

汲汲營營忘記身邊的人需要愛和關心　藉口總是拉遠了距離

不知不覺無聲無息　我們總是在抱怨事與願違　卻不願意回頭看看自己
想想自己　到底做了什麼蠢事情　也許是上帝給我一個試煉
只是這傷口需要花點時間　只是會想念過去的一切
那些人事物會離我遠去　而我們終究也會遠離變成回憶

Repeat ＊

多久沒有說我愛你　多久沒有擁抱你所愛的人
當這個世界　不再那麼美好　只有愛可以讓他更好
我相信　一切都來得及　別管那些紛紛擾擾
別讓不開心的事　停下了腳步　就怕你不說　就怕你不做
別讓遺憾繼續　一切都來得及

Repeat ＊

少飞少爷，一路走好。。。

Is it because I’ve admired him all my life that leads me into his script so instantaneously?

Is it because of the overlaps and similarities in our life experiences that simply a few lines of his script are capable of moving me to tears?

How did anyone spawn such beautiful story and writing? And how could it be that the same blood runs in our bodies? I can never write something so amazing.

All I can do is switching masks. I could be crying alone for one moment, and I could be smiling and chatty with others at the next. Sometimes I surprised myself with my speed of emotional adjustment.

Snap.

All it takes to change.

It’s as if I’m acting, enrolled in a play, directed by fate and destiny and godly powers.

If you’ve only seen the happy me, chances are, you don’t know me.

But perhaps it’s better for you to stay there.

Unless you feel that I’m worth it.

不自觉地把这歌词放在这栏。

其实不算是很悲观的歌吧。

也许心情真的会影响很多。

但我觉得这首歌

真的写出我现在的心声。

一個人　眺望碧海和藍天　

在心裡面那抹灰就淡一些

海豚從眼前飛越　

我看見了最陽光的笑臉

好時光都該被寶貝　因為有限

我學著不去擔心得太遠　

不計畫太多反而能勇敢冒險

豐富地過每一天　快樂地看每一天

Wooh～第一次遇見陰天遮住你側臉

有什麼故事好想了解　

我感覺我懂你的特別

你的心有一道牆　

但我發現一扇窗　

偶爾透出一絲暖暖的微光

就算你有一道牆

我的愛會攀上窗台盛放　

打開窗你會看到悲傷融化

你會聞到幸福晴朗的芬芳