there she goes again.

i've seen it coming.

and today, she told me

in her miserable drunken stupor

that her biggest mistake in life is to have brought me and my brother to this world

which she deemed unfair and not suitable for human life.

how can someone thrive on hate and sorrow?

well, she can.

as dad said, she breathes sorrow, drink frustration, gobbles melancholy.

why?

that's something dad never understood.

so do i.

she kept telling me that nothing will happen to her until i graduate.

so what? does that mean that she's going to end her life when i DO graduate?

what should i do? retain forever?

i do not understand why she likes to bring sadness to people whom she loved most.

or perhaps, she just hates me.

because i'm her mistake in life.