Bathroom
To dream that you are in the bathroom, relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to "relieve yourself". Alternatively, it may symbolize purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically.

perhaps. perhaps.

before mother's day arrived, i already know what will happen.

these are the key words- drunk, alcohol, sobbing, dad, death, why, clueless, life, fate

every 2 to 3 days, she'll get herself drunk and will kept talking consistently on the same topic repeating the same things.

and i will just try my best to contain myself.

it's irritating. and painful. like millions of needles piercing through one's heart.

after that, she'll hide in the bathroom or on bed and whine and cry and sob her heart out.

sometimes i wonder. how on earth did i turn out to be what people perceived as normal?

i do not know.

sometimes, i just want to be alone and away.