reason being that i'm still unsure if kao and mum will take Chichi away when i'm away.
i'm really afraid of that.
i'm all committed and tied with this lil' fellow.

when mum brought me to see the 7 kittens that some f*cking bastard abandoned at some hdb void deck and they were fostered by this friend of ours, i couldn't control my tears. they've lost their mum and i felt the same. i picked up Chichi and i felt a connection established.

it's love at 1st sight. really.

for those of you who learn jap, i'm sure u know what Chichi means. kao asked and mum asked, but i kept quiet lest i teared upon mention.

it means daddy.

since ytd when we picked him up, there never was once when i could control my tears when i see him sucking his milk bottle or simply looking at me with curious exploring eyes. i felt that Chichi filled up some of the emptiness in me. i felt that he is the lil' joy in my life.

i felt that he's a gift from Dad.

kao brought neko, mum brought xixi, dad brought oka, i brought chichi.

although we could never be together again, i really hope the cats that we brought will manage to stay under one roof and enjoy each other's company.

on our behalf.

i really do. and i'm all ready to take up the responsibility to take care of him till his end.

not just him, but neko, xixi and oka as well.

having a pet is a life's promise. u've to take care of him/her till his/her end.

i hope i have the life to do that.

but if kao and mum want to give him back, i'm helpless.

but really, it's just like hope being taken away, from my sorrow-ridden 2008.


a gift for those who have the patience to finish my entry...