The lil' kitten, after being fed, was gleefully playing with the ribbons...
and nibbling my ankle as well =)

I'm sleepy... too!

I hope you can see him too.
You've been away for 3 mths...

my love =)
nvm my background blabbering. concentrate on Chichi. he's damn happy after his milk.



YES I LOVE TORTILLA CHIPS x)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cSu8-A2QTAg

reason being that i'm still unsure if kao and mum will take Chichi away when i'm away.
i'm really afraid of that.
i'm all committed and tied with this lil' fellow.

when mum brought me to see the 7 kittens that some f*cking bastard abandoned at some hdb void deck and they were fostered by this friend of ours, i couldn't control my tears. they've lost their mum and i felt the same. i picked up Chichi and i felt a connection established.

it's love at 1st sight. really.

for those of you who learn jap, i'm sure u know what Chichi means. kao asked and mum asked, but i kept quiet lest i teared upon mention.

it means daddy.

since ytd when we picked him up, there never was once when i could control my tears when i see him sucking his milk bottle or simply looking at me with curious exploring eyes. i felt that Chichi filled up some of the emptiness in me. i felt that he is the lil' joy in my life.

i felt that he's a gift from Dad.

kao brought neko, mum brought xixi, dad brought oka, i brought chichi.

although we could never be together again, i really hope the cats that we brought will manage to stay under one roof and enjoy each other's company.

on our behalf.

i really do. and i'm all ready to take up the responsibility to take care of him till his end.

not just him, but neko, xixi and oka as well.

having a pet is a life's promise. u've to take care of him/her till his/her end.

i hope i have the life to do that.

but if kao and mum want to give him back, i'm helpless.

but really, it's just like hope being taken away, from my sorrow-ridden 2008.


a gift for those who have the patience to finish my entry...

家好月圆终于大结局了。

在Jo鲍生日当天，他许了一个愿望。

“我身体比你好，你死得比我早。”

当中的“你”，是指他的妻子。

他希望他能照顾她，他希望失去同伴的痛苦由他一个人承受。

昨天入眠前，我想起了这句话，又落泪了。

爸爸，相信你在世时也有这样的愿望吧?

i dread gg home.

when i go home and see my mum in a half-drunk state feigning happiness

the sight pains me as a sharpened knife would on my skin and flesh.

many said i'm amazing at recovery

i just repress myself and try to forget

coming home just brings it all back

i am so tired

i am so very much in pain

suppressing tears has become my forte

老爸。。。中秋节快乐！

告诉我天上是否真的有嫦娥，玉兔和吴刚吧？

今天去看你，帮你擦亮石碑，心中仍然悸动。

看那被火吞噬的金银纸，真的怀疑你收到了吗？

那是我们的思念

回想起六月发生的事，仍觉得不可思议

好像真的是一场很可怕的恶梦

梦而已

以往新年时的守岁，生日时的愿望，不过是灰烬．．．

去年的中秋节是怎么过的？

我忘记了

没有记载

你记得吗？

只知道没有爸爸，就没有绿茶月饼，没有柚子灯笼，没有中国茶

中秋，没有了．．．

老爸。。。中秋节快乐！

i dreamt of you ytd

woke up in the middle of the night

just to realise that it's a dream

an impossible dream

but i didn't tear

has the truth finally sunk in?


新阿里朗，是我的梦想
阿里朗，是我的现实