今天，我找到了那把充满回忆的口琴。

只是轻轻地拿握在手中，却一直感到那沉沉的思念。

不断续地直涌心坎。

清洗一番，吹起了当年爸爸教我的曲调，愕然发现自己其实只记得如何吹奏《小白船》。

生疏的技巧吹出了熟悉的曲子，心中的滋味难以形容。

表面上没流泪，但其实泪，留在心里头。

好怀念。。。好怀念。。。

P.S. 其实到这里，我早已静静地落泪了。总是爱逞强的我。。。

i noticed that, as of late, when i tell someone that i miss him/her, i don't get it back anymore.

i miss being missed.

http://www.vimeo.com/14803194

i miss the times when i miss u.

but everything is in the past now.

ah wee: it's actually really sad, when u realised that the someone whom u used to be so close with gradually became more like a stranger. with time, you'll forget what he/she likes, how he/she sounds like, when he/she looks the best, how his/her laughter never fails to bring a smile to you...

somehow wad ah wee said hurts me a lil in e heart.

i was so exhausted at work today.

needed to bounce off some ideas with oh oh, and guess what number i dialed.

94511527

recently i kept thinking abt dad, idk why.

really dunno.

officially graduated.

goodbye to 16 years of studying. hello to a life of working.

anyways that's not the point of this entry.

i went to convocation alone.

i think i'm the only one who went to convocation without the presence of any family members.

at first i was a little sad that my bro had to go to school and my mum didn't want to attend, but it all makes sense as i won't want my mum to go alone as well. if so, i won't have e freedom of running ard taking photos w anyone in sight. also most prob i'll have to go home with her immediately after convocation.

but this is a negative entry coz when my friends knew that none of my family members came, they gave me a sad look of sympathy. i'm positive that they didn't do it on purpose, but i can't say that i'm not affected the least bit.

ah well. but i did have fun at convocation. ok now refer to my positive entry, pls.

1月6日2011年上演的那一场戏，在7月6日2011年结束了。

6个月之后，在同样的地点。开场，落幕。

并不觉得怎么样。不过是预料之内的事。

这注定是一场没有结局的戏。

我承认，自己不是石头做的。

伤感悠然存在。但随之而来的轻松，让我觉得欣慰。

因为真真正正地谢幕了。

谢谢你让我尝到了丝丝甜蜜的滋味。尽管我的记忆不良，但那些陈年的片段，我不会忘记。

i wish my baby all the best.

:)

你一定要走吗？
可不可以休息一下。
像我一样，偶尔睡个懒觉，
偶尔发呆，偶尔出错，
偶尔闹闹情绪，偶尔耍赖……
.::几米::.

please stop blaming other people and learn to take up some responsibilities on your own.

coz if you don't help yourself, nobody can help you.

you're given chance after chance to prove yourself, and yet you failed.

i seriously ponder if you should be given another chance at this again.

i'd rather you be given another chance at something else which you might just excel in.

you don't owe me anything baby.

but i feel that you've owed yourself.

tell me how many promises you've broken and how many excuses you've came up with to substantiate them.

is it worth the repeated years? the extra loan?

and most importantly, the time lost?

every time this happened, you'll issue a promise that you can't fulfill. how can anyone trust that this time, things will be different?

also, my dear, there are definitely other ways out. this just may not be the way for you.

in any case, of course I hope that this time round, the results will be different, that you'll fulfill your promise, and maybe even outperform.

but base on what I know about you, I really doubt it.

nevertheless, i love you. and of course I hope that this time round, it'll work out for you. but part of me wishes that you'll take other paths ahead of you, which are more tailor-made for you, I feel.

i miss you.

人为什么要活到这么累？

人为什么要活到这么黑暗？

人为什么要活到这么悲惨？

人为什么要活到这么自怜？

人为什么要活到这么自欺欺人？

人为什么要把自己的不快乐推到别人身上？

难道自己不能承担自己的快乐吗？

it was before i took a nap that i recalled my dreams yesterday night.

dad came back. we lived together happily for a period of time.

one day he disappeared.

i walked past the sides of the vast ocean waters. and i thought i saw the back view of a human figure in the waters.

it suddenly occurred to me that. dad was long gone. and the figure that came back to us was just a manifestation of my deepest desire. apparently some spirits heard it and decided to fulfill it for a moment.

the day when the figure disappeared was when the spirits heard a voice elsewhere and decided to correspond to it instead.

hence the disappearance.

and the emptiness that follows. yet again.

absolutely wrong timing.

too late.

sorry. i really don't think so.

3 words that i wanna say but i'm so afraid that i won't get them back from you.

yes, i'm not that confident after all.

http://leloveimage.blogspot.com/2011/04/thought-of-us-having-label.html

baby, i wanna say that if it's so hard to love, then perhaps it's better to withdraw.

i can't bear to see you cry again.

工人党胜出了，爸！新加坡政治终于有个突破了！

i wish you'd live to see this.

started off with you being my best friend since year 1.

ended off with you being out of reach in year 4.

life, as such.

i rem u brought me to my first rally, 5 years ago.

i couldn't vote then.

you couldn't vote now.

we'll never get to vote for WP together.

attending rally reminds me of u. i rem how excited u'll be. e times u behave like a fan boy.

this yr, i went. it was fun too.

but things are just different, 5 years later.